A 30 year old man who hasn't touched grass since 2007, chronically online, complaining about fandoms, probably a brony, probably a Trekkie, zero bitches, jobless, consuming porn, center right liberal, barely creating anything noteworthy, making blog style reviews, all because he's autistic or something. If I'm like that I will kill myself. AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
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The important thing is to be happy, if you are, there are no problems. Do what you please. If you need a job to feel good, try to find one that you really like, but if you don't, then there's no point. Don't let society dictate what you need.
You are going through a bad period, hold on and your efforts will be rewarded.
Don't hesitate to do new activities and do things you've never done before, to try to breathe a little and clear your mind.
Good luck !!